Back to the og camera again, but this time I can't get enough film for it. I forgot how much fun it is. It's only been a few months since the ae-1 saw new a roll but I'm wishing I used it all Winter. The process of pressing the release until shutter gradually lets 36 photos come to life is one that I'll always love. You have to slow down to 1985 and think. It shows me how much I love making stuff.
Sometimes its really cool how life forces you into a path you didn't see coming. But other times it really blows. Canon has called me back 3 times on the repair of my main camera and each time the estimate has gone up. It's now over the original price of the camera and I have $4 so I'll be using film for a minute. I can still rent for paid shoots but everything else is going to be a step back in time. The funniest/most frustrating part is, when my camera broke I received more emails asking to shoot in that day than in an entire month. Sick.. If there were bumps in the road I'd be catching air off of them. Which would actually be sick.
I think event photography is where I've really finessed my abilities. You have to be on it. You have to run to a new spot and get your stuff dialed in .0023 seconds. It's mad fun!
KOTR was the only ski event in Washington you needed to be at.
Sometimes you get ran into while shooting events, that's usually a sign you're in a good spot.
This Winter has been one of the funnest I can remember, even though we didn't get every photo we talked about it was one I won't forget.
Still trying to figure out what to do next. The camera isn't the only thing kinda weird, I'm still finding myself saying things I wish I could hit the rewind button on. In general just needing to let go and slow down more. No doubt I've overcome many mental hurdles and I'm more of the person I want to be, but I still have a way to go. We all do, but I think acknowledging an issue is a good step to overcoming it. I thought I'd be much further along in life by now, I thought the images from this Winter would be face melting, I thought my personality would outweigh mental shit, but that's not really the case. Like the people and world around me, I'm still broken. However even when things are broken you can still see some light. You can still have fun.
Not to end on a heavy G minor note, just staying healthy, also really down to get out of rock bottom. I'll keep the blog going every 2 weeks.
I need another half an ahlmonde -Lil R