I pretty much consistently lose focus. But I'm sure you do too. You're just jive'n and living and pretty soon you are running fast down some path you've never seen. You think about your dream yet somehow, do something else. I keep on focusing my eyes to what I should be doing. Yet instead of doing it, I go, "Ah I made a list of ski shots, emailed a ski company, that's pretty good. Now I'll go take some bike photos." Check this out. I moved to Portland because of Hood. Have I skied Hood? Na, not even touched it. I got focused on work, and bike photos. Setting up shoots on Hood is starting to fade because I'm losing focus. But this stray path I'm blazing down, Is one I'm loving. So maybe I'm just 21 and naive, maybe all the drawings and lists I'm making for snow photos are too. Maybe this will bite my ass off? Maybe one dream can take another's place? Maybe the old dream can take the place of another dream that was supposed to take the place of the old dream in the first place??? Maybe I should just shut up and shoot both? No matter what happens though, focusing on the valuable will keep me going.
This is what I'm talking about. Hanging with Alex and making some killer memories. I want to work on my portfolio and Alex is thinking about sponsors. Before my Race at the NW cup we got to chill in the Hills.
"Yo, Quick question. Would you be up photo shoot in the Portland area (Post Canyon, Sandy?) Just wanted to hit ya up!"
We made it happen two weeks later and got some great photos. I dug hanging out with Alex, super fun just cruising around finding spots that had weight to them. You know, like looking for zones, seeing how they resonate with you're friend with and yourself. This ladder drop had some memories with Alex and just looked killer. Definitely thinking things through but for the most part just shutting my brain down and letting things flow.
On my way to Kellogg with Hood in my mirror. All could think about is about what the future looks like, like will I ever get to hang with Riff Raff? Will I ever be on time? Will I ever not want to nap? This life is awesome. I get to make photos and work at a great outdoor store. On the horizon I can see a career, but like every master you have to be tested by the flame.
The NW Cup, like always, was just a run through the woods, bumping into wasted friends parking side. I shoot with Lost Bikes, a small Bike company in Bellingham and I love those people. If only laughs could fix holes in tires.
"keep your eyes on the ball, gotta score with something." -lil Rach
Losing focus is a part of the ride. I don't really care if I'm not always on it. I still see what's good.