Discouraged Adj. Having lost lost enthusiasm; disheartened. I could totally look back on the Summer and cry, because I have. It sucked, I've never been more exhausted or lonely in my life. I could look back on it and say, "Damn, I got let go because I'm terrible at my job. Or, "I barely connected with anyone, why can't I fit in". But that's not how it is. I got let go cause I am focused on something better (and cause of fucked scheduling). I didn't connect with everyone cause I didn't let go. Getting turned down from agencies & proposals, even dropping the ball on one of the hand full of jobs I did get was brutal. But out of all that, I chose not to be discouraged. Yeah I felt bummed, I still feel bummed rn, but I haven't lost all my enthusiasm. I have not given up. Careers take off, you just have to be patient.
This is going to be my last blog, I really got to let some nasty stuff out. This was good though
Dreams know the way. Found in the dust, no amount of untruth, loss or misunderstanding can separate me from you.
"ily" -Big R